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So tell me, what is the damn point of me going down this very unnecessarily terrifying new route, that might or might not be of worth to me in the long run, if my new encounters are simply manifestations of what I’ve stuck through before, minus a dick?
I came this far because I thought a change was in order. I took a huge step for myself in a very risky direction just as so I can put a definite stop to tiring old ways. But you, you might just be proof that the devil indeed comes in every shape, size, and apparently, gender too.
And me, I’m just living proof that no matter which angle you bend the damn arrow, players will still be just players, and girls who are attracted to players (and only players) will still be just that.
You may have just ruined my last remaining bit of faith in humankind. This is dreadful, I swear. Do you see the gravity of this?!
I can’t stop this thing short, that’ll be lame. But I won’t play either, cause then that’ll defeat the purpose of you in the first place. So this is what I am going to do. I am going to start being honest. So brutally honest. No more pretense, no more hiding. Everything’s going to come out, and then I’m going to demand for an answer, and if it’s a no, I am moving on. I may find you hot, true, but please remember, I still hold both cards in my hands. I can switch anytime I like and you’d be forgotten faster than you can say gay.
I have also adopted a no return policy of late, to ensure space for newer, fresher stock; and I dare say I have been keeping at that rather well.
And you… You better start thinking hard about what you really mean to say cause the next wish that you make? Well you might just get it, beautiful.
Sidenote, Zouk was terrific. So was Marco V. It’s now 7.41am. Goodnight world.
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lilin darl… that was deep love. like real deep. but i understand how you feel. but dont do anything drastic ok? if i have to remind u again ud know what that reminder would be ryt? that friendship overcomes most things. but whatever it is u noe WE will be there for u. promise. love love…
Comment by wawan May 3, 2008 @ 8:04 amfate.
faith.
love.
i love your entries even though i know shit about what’s gg on in your life. haaaa. it’s like reading a thriller (this entry and some others) haha. have you considered journalism or law studies? or are you actually in it alr? but i heard journalism is a tough industry altogether.
Comment by mai.sarah May 4, 2008 @ 1:37 am