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I am not heartless. I simply forgot to retrieve it back.
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I spent the last three months feeling inadequate and immoral. And then one light chat with a dear friend made me realise one thing- that all that doubt on my moral bearings and self loathing was totally unnecessary. I was just being human, that I felt hurt and cheated when my ex was found with different girls immediately following our break up.
It was just natural. That I felt insulted though we weren’t together anymore, though I was attached to another. I didn’t have anymore feelings for him then but when so rudely interrogated, even that simple issue of my feelings I started to doubt. And the possibility of emotionally cheating on my partner made me feel dirty.
As a person, my thoughts and opinions are extremely difficult to sway. I am open minded but more often than not my feet are always securely fastened to where they have always been. What made me doubt myself and let myself be influenced by such an embarassingly narrow and close minded individual 3 months ago, I’ll never know.
My faith in myself is once again restored, and I’ve learnt to never doubt myself again, that reasoned gut feeling or otherwise, I am indeed not that obliviously shrewd. Thank God, my parents didn’t do such a bad job afterall. I’m relieved I still have my head intact.
Girls, always be someone who makes you feel beautiful inside and outside. Do not let anyone bring you down with their judgemental, critical and shallow views. Be your own person, form your own opinions of the world and its people, decide for yourself what is right and what is wrong, believe in yourself, mould your character on your own, keep both feet secured on that plot of land and let no one sway you, and most of all, look for light in the right places.
To the smitten kitten who’s saved my ass countless times before, you are a true friend, thank you. Your open mind has helped me plenty, but most importantly, your open heart has helped me healed, yet again. AND NOW IF YOU’D ONLY PICK UP MY CALLS CAUSE IM GETTING SLEEPY HERE HELLO.
